My first split/dissociation came in the womb when being bombarded with alcohol and hostile enviroment. I've spent most of my life trying to work out who I am at my core. I think for me I have to unravel gradually and discover who that is. Its not like a switch that will just happen, that I will come into being. So yes I've been alot of different people all my life. But the core of me has been present in all of them. Its who we became, my other parts are as much as my core as "I" am. Just taken me a while to see that. I've been trying to rid myself of my parts to reveal a core part. We're all that core part. I recognise myself in all of us now.