I feel like I'm on an edge of a cliff just barely hanging on...I can't stop crying and its a very hard, intense cry...I'm on psych meds and I think they are whats causing the depression...I called to see if I could get an earlier appt. than July 16th and the receptionist said, "You have an appt. already you don't need another one"...My psychiatrist knows I'm going through a really rough time and she told me that if I needed to see her sooner, to call...Evidently she forgot I have to go through a receptionist who is a &&&&&&&&&...

I only have one person in my life other than my T and I have a feeling my T isn't going to be around much longer...I can't do this life anymore!!!!...No, I won't commit suicide but I pray that something happens to me on its own...My family doesn't give a flying flip about me so won't faze them...

I had some tests run and they came out fine, what is happening to me is mental...Mountains keep looking taller, the weight on my shoulders is getting heavier and I just want to curl up into a ball...Find Peace