I have felt the same way as lunatic fringe about my own pressured speech when I've been manic. My language gets so fast and colorful and interrupty, and talk-overy, and I feel like I'm thinking on a higher level than everyone else and that I am speaking mostly in puns that no one understands and that I can see special connections and relationships and patterns with words that are profound in less than a split second and just spit them out without stumbling, but that even then my speech doesn't nearly match up with my brain speed which is thinking like 100 different ideas a second. I think I'm hilarious and brilliant but probably come off as sounding cracked out. My friends got worried that I had taken up meth when I had my first big manic episode. I must have sounded like a crazy tweaker.
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Diagnoses: Bipolar I, GAD, binge eating disorder (or something), substance abuse, and ADHD.
“No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness.” ― Aristotle
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