Thanks for your response, mouse.

No, I wasn't trying to elicit sympathy from my pdoc... I don't make suicidal gestures; this was the first attempt in 8 years, and it had to do with my level of depression and hopelessness. I have Bipolar I disorder, but was only on 5 mg Abilify (plus anti-depressants) as a mood stabilizer. The other pdoc thought I should have been on at least 15 mg. But that's irrelevent, I guess...

I know "kick him to the curb" doesn't sound very human, but I feel hurt and angry. Maybe I'm being unfair...

I appreciate your input.