Cheri, I am new here and don't know your story. I just want to say that I am so sorry for the incredible pain that led you to your attempt. I am so glad you survived.

As for your pdoc, nine years is a lot of time invested in a relationship. I think it is worth discussing with him why he reacted the way he did and how it made you feel. But I would caution that you should do so only if you feel you have the strength right now, which you may not. Or, you could write him a letter and ask for a response asking for some closure.

I am glad you met someone else you feel you can have a working relationship. I have found, 6 pdocs later!, that skill and compassion in a pdoc is a rare combination.

Best of luck on your road to recovery.