"wanting to be hugged forever feeling" - totally !

I've been just reading through some BPD symptoms again and I could relate to half of them.

- I don't suddenly rage at people I love and tell them it's over and that they're nothing to me.
- I think I have attended at least 90% of my Therapist meetings in the last 2 years.
While I do have doubts about my Therapist's abilities at times which is I think legitimate for a patient to have thoughts like that, I don't consciously hold anger towards her or passive-aggressive behaviors - NOT that I'm aware of
- I doubt my anxiety level qualifies to the "typical" bpd's anxiety that is causing them to cut/burn themselves or abuse drugs. while I have a past with drugs, I don't excessively abuse drugs except my recent Energy drinks thing... I guess that's an issue of course but I don't think it's a relief to the anxiety but rather maintaining my somewhat hypo-manic state that I so love.
- I've never made a threat to kill myself except 5 years ago when I was severely depressed as a response to unexpected life-changing events, I was depressed more than anything back then really.
I do reach out for attention, for talks, but ain't that just an extroverted feely person's actions ? (hehe)
~ Ultimately, I don't go completely nuts when I'm alone. I can tolerate it, but I yearn for connection I guess.

So far ruling out the kinda aggressive-negative part of BPD's ?
Hmm, I can definitely relate to the fierce nature of my mood swings.
I do idealize the people I love in a way, but not 100%, I can see their pitfalls, where they struggle or stuck in personal growth.
I do have impulse to express, because I often feel overwhelmed emotionally.

I don't know .. I'll try to look at this tomorrow again and maybe see stuff in a different light
Could I be a lovely BPD ? without the aggressive rageful symptoms ?