No one ever made an appointment for me, so I don't know what I would've done, but I do recall having a couple of false starts of my own when I started therapy. Even to this day I've canceled appointments when I've felt too awful or "unable" to get to my therapist.

How long has he been on meds? I was resistant to go onto medication initially, but in hindsight wish I had decades ago. For what it's worth, I admire him at least getting that far. That's far more courageous than I was in the beginning.