I have dysphoric mixed states. The dysphoric part means that I'm in a horrible mood and the mixed part, well, I'm currently describing that as the ugly mania playing tug of war with me as the rope with the ugly depression, both of which are here at the same time. The dysphoric mania tends to be the one on top, I think it is just "louder" but I feel both down (depressed) and up (but as defined as irritable, agitated, angry, rapid thinking, parnaoid, psychotic symptoms this time, etc).

It's really not pretty and I wouldn't wish this on the worst person on earth.