I'm going to be totally honest here. I support you and I want to say more but even thinking about my own experiences is making me upset and I can't do upset right now. But I did want you to know I empathize and have had siblings be among my worst triggers, enough that I've missed a family holiday or two to avoid the stress if I was already not doing well (and then that makes my mom upset). Without thinking about my own situation I can't give advice other than probably good to take your meds.

But I do feel for you and I'm sorry that you are dealing with this. Hopefully you'll get a job quickly. What is your degree in?