I don't know exactly what it is. I reckon I am depressed, I was really bad a couple years ago to the point of almost attempting to commit suicide, but talked myself down. I haven't been that bad since . I also used to self harm because it made me feel accomplished I guess you could say, but not only that I did it because I could. I get mad a lot and hit thing usually I hit myself in the side of the face and curse myself because it is an immediate release and it's often over the most irrelevant things. I'm kind of at that point again where I'd rather not wake up. I'd be fine being absent, I've even considered turning to drugs to maybe live a little. I've monitored a lot of things I'd like to say and I guess this isn't much of a question, I'd just like an opinion.