Thanks for the kind words, all. I've been trying to be kinder to myself, it has been hard cause I just feel so silly. I saw my therapist today, and I'm grateful that, if nothing else comes out of this rough patch, at least I finally am talking to someone, started back in December, and I really lucked out. She doesn't judge me or make me feel badly about myself, and it is nice to have someone removed from the situation to talk to. Wish I woulda started seeing her sooner, but oh well. She reminded me to take life one day at a time and not think I can fix everything at once, and she's right. My biggest fear right now is that no one will hire me, even for part time. But I've always been a "worst case scenario" type person. I know I need to cut myself more slack, and stop being so worried about what others think.