I wish that they would know that it has nothing to do with them, that it isn't because they aren't there for me, it's just something that I need to do.

I wish they would know that it isn't because I hate myself, or because I'm depressed or any of the usual stereotypes. I do it because the pain wakes me up, makes me feel again when I go numb, and gives me something else to think about.

And I agree with the others, I wish they would know that when I do it, I would like to be able to go to them and not worry about what they think, that they would just hold me and accept me.