Hi,
I apologize due to my busy schedule, but I glanced over this, may have missed details, but this may sound hokey, but try to see the accomplishments, look at the stuff you have done, you made a lot of efforts, I do not get the impression you are lazy,in fact I am impressed at what you have done
Okay, on the other hand, I understand the grip depression can take on you ( I've been there and still have to occasionally fight it, very hard too, zapping me od my mental and physical energy
I have to run, but wanted to tell you this. Please hang in there, and feel free to come and talk with us.

Take care now,

DE