What other plan do people use for coping? I mean, SI has always been the last thing I turn to, when nothing else has worked. Normally I call a friend, and ask them to do something (not telling them I'm freaking out, it's more a distraction thing) but people get busy, and that's when I turn to SI, cause then I also have the whole rejection thing.

I really do think I'm going to give him my knives though. Or at least make them go away somehow. And if I start turning to more dangerous ways to hurt myself, I'll ask for them back.

oh, and thanks for the hugs Angela, they are always welcome