I was never abandoned, but I cut others out of my life from raw fear and paranoia that they'd hurt me, or that I was bad for them. Since childhood, actually... I had to grow up fast and learn to get by with whatever I had. I didn't have much support to speak of, both because I blocked them and that the support I did have often ended up as backstabbing.

And yes, I've been in therapy for 8 years overall.