I so relate to your post, Ihani. I've been diagnosed bipolar, but my current p-doc says Nah, not bipolar...BPD tendencies. I dunno. Sometimes I think there isn't a diagnosis per se, but that this is just me, my personality. Whatever the case, I find the way I am very tiring and every psychiatrist says something different....you're "this", you're "that". No medication has ever really helped the rapid mood changes. Creative expression helps more than anything else does.