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Kiya · May 30, 2015, 12:57 AM

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Originally Posted by Willowtrees

Everything is unraveling and I feel like the help Im asking for does not exist. Been in the hospital inpatient because of alters twice in maybe 10 days for serious self and selves destructive plans. Im sure you can imagine how swimmingly that went. They literally didnt even spell my disorder right. Losing time, but more importantly, information, that i wasnt before, and its terrifying. Really dont know what to do anymore. Nothing seems to be helping. Ive stopped trying so hard to hide the DID because its impossible now. Alters i pushed back before are now all "notice me!!". Noticing how much the inner house affects real life. I had a butler in the house for months, but thought he was just imaginary. Is not. Crying all of the time, hearing voices threatening to make me black out, bad sleep, panic attacks. When is anything going to get better? Im getting all of the help I can.

Often, when alters are "Acting out" it is because their needs aren't getting met; maybe they need to be heard and seen, maybe they have part of the story they're willing to share now, maybe they're hurting or afraid or angry... it's tough to learn what our insiders need. writing can help. giving them time to be out and do things with set guidelines and boundaries... I lost my train of thought.... um oh - like when you know you will be home and safe for several hours. that kind of thing. It's hard to know that we are allowed to have needs, yet alone what those needs might be.
Best!