I don't know what happened.

A girl I liked on skype told me she got a boyfriend and then something sort of snapped inside of me. I had a crush sort of on two girls online. Well a great liking for at the least. When I heard about her boyfriend I felt a great trembling inside of me. Not really rage no.

I ended up laughing and the energy was immense. I didn't know where it came from. I had to start working out immediately. I didn't think I liked her that much! I don't think I really did tbh. Though it set me off and I went and told the other girl I have a crush on that I liked her and thought she was cute. I also told her about the other girl and that was what pushed me to talk to her like this and admit what I felt.

Wowza. A socially anxious person like me went and told another person their feelings about them. Well it was only online and via chat. Then talks of long distance and how BLEH! Long distance is. Am I being for real, and eventually it became a really fun chat. Talked honestly about feelings and such. She told me some personal stuff about herself and it was just wonderful.

I think I really like her even more than before. I felt completely comfortable during the whole 4 hours of chatting. I wasn't anxious at all with her during this whole time. I don't know if it's love or just a very good friendship. We both have similar problems and she thought her *problem* would scare me away but it just allured me more. Very connected I felt. I've never felt such a connection before. I didn't expect any of this to happen.