My t says to be grateful to the part of me that is the protective part for keeping me safe all these years. It's hard to be grateful- I get that myself and I feel that frustration. I'm sick of shutting down just before a session and I seem to have a hurry up drive. I get completely where you are coming from- though I'm just beginning to get there I think. She says not to spend energy fighting that part of me and accept it instead. It is there for a reason. But by pushing it away and getting frustrated with it it is counterproductive- it will just dig in more. Hope that makes sense and is helpful. If not please ignore! Not an easy answer I'm afraid.