I am very very obsessive, and for a long time I have used meditation to try to calm myself down. I am finally admitting it's not working, not the way it should. The more I meditate, the worse I feel. It seems that I am trying too hard and just generally being obsessive while I meditate. So I'm trying a break from meditation. And what I'm finding is that life can be like a meditation. There are plenty of opportunities to be mindful in life.

I'm sorry, that probably doesn't help you, but it's just something that's on my mind as I try to cope with my OCD more skillfully.

What medication are you on, by the way? I've tried Luvox in the past, but I'm thinking of trying Viibryd.