i have had ptsd from traumatic events in my childhood, including rape. i had a stroke a year and a half ago at the age of 33, which complicated my chronic major depression that is treatment-resistant. funny thing, recently when the word "brain lesion" crops up, all those feelings while i was still a medical mystery for many months came back to me. what makes this worse is that i'm having side effects of cymbalta that puts me under a heavy mental fog, making me prone to thinking that i'm still a medical mystery. in a couple of days, i will have the dosage of cymbalta reduced. for some strange reason, i'm terrified, and i don't know why. it's just been too long under this mental fog, since april when i first started on cymbalta. i guess, this fog is freaking me out and for some strange reason, this triggers the fear that i had after the stroke when i was still a mystery. at first, i had a brain lesion that the docs thought was a result of ms, then infection, and evolved into a stroke. took 5 mri scans to confirm that it was a stroke. didn't know whether if i would live or not. can't think straight nowadays with this fog (i didn't have this fog after the stroke). so, i guess, things get mixed up in my head.