I'm crying right now because everything you said says it all. The worry and analyzation. I'm seeing if I can function off of Seroquel and I'm almost off of it and these two months has been this extra worry and analyzation. Will it work, or am I going to break? There's that fear for all of us because of episodes in the past so you are on the constant lookout for any signs. You try to tell yourself don't let this disease consume you but you are reminded repeatedly all day long. You can explain what's going on to close ones but they will never understand so you feel so alone in this world. I get it.