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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
But I'm not psychotic. I can't be. I'm not in an episode, other than feeling a little down. I only feel that way when I'm having those paranoia feelings, which admittedly I'm having right now. I feel physically sick. I don't even believe in demons really, just negative energy, and I don't know how to fight it.
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I believe in the idea of "breakthrough symptoms". BP **** that clobbers you during a well period
When I was pretty well but maybe a tad depressed I had a night where I woke up in a panic and couldn't get back to sleep. I tired everything but was experiencing a terror of sorts. I went into the bathroom and a fly was buzzing around and I thought it was evil and my head started going there is evil in here etc etc. ya know the Bipolar freak show in my brain. So I took a bunch of klonopin and melatonin and somehow got to sleep.
The next day I was fine again.
Some of the wisest words I ever heard on this board...
Bipolar is ridiculous.
There aren't rules for it. We always want to believe there are rules and boundaries and measures etc. the mental health people want there to be too. But there aren't. Bipolar has been around longer than the mental health profession, or the DSM, or psychiatric wards, or anything else.
Don't discount things just because they don't fit the "rules".