Hi. I just recently ended a relationship I had with a man who also has a mental illness. He has Schitzophrenia and bipolar. I really let myself get tangled up emotionally with him and let by heart get broken. I just couldn't put up with his constantly changing personalities from day to day. One day he would love me, touch me, and want to be with me. Then he would withdraw and stay away from me for up to 2 weeks at a time. He said that was just the way he was. I was convinced I was in love with him and believed everything he told me. I craved the attention that he would show me when he was in his "good" personality. It's like a tug of war and it really got me emotionally messed up. I feel like such a fool for letting myself get involved with a man who also has a mental illness. 2 sickies don't make a right. I tried to be understanding as I have bipolar myself, but that can only go so far. Now the hard part is to try not to think about him all the time and forget the good memories because it hurts too much. I will NEVER let myself feel this way over a man again in my life. It's just not worth it.
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