At the moment I don't have an end to therapy in sight. It is a huge budget item and takes up a lot of my emotional energy. However my life is feeling very hard, very confusing and very uncertain of late and I feel like I really need the care, support and perspective that therapy gives me. I wish I had more support and community than I do. I wish therapy were not my main source of support. Sometimes that makes me feel very lonely and scared. I hope there comes a time when therapy feels more optional, more like an added bonus or strategy to help me when I need it rather than survival or sustenance. But that's where I am right now.