Thanks. I actually do feel proud - having a great, sunny day where I am.....have accomplished a lot and spent a good day with the kids.

To be honest, I quickly developed a "bleep you" stance with those bothering me and that helped but even as I was LEAVING, one of them stopped me and said "come on man, ONE quick drink". I am finding that being "a-hole selfish" with people helps me in many ways. In the past, I've always felt like I was pulled in all sorts of different directions and never did anything for ME. That makes me super-edgy and is a big trigger for me. My new attitude turns some people off and I need to learn how to deliver the message better, but many of my co-workers think I'm arrogant anyway so I didn't lose much ground there.

In the past, I would have dove in headfirst. But that was pre-BP....now I sort of know booze makes it worse. I'm no saint and I'm no angel but I know I can't drink anymore. Especially considering I came off a five day downer starting on Sunday last. If I remember correctly, I always used to drink during hypomanic phases because I "owed" it to myself. I was up yesterday and am up today so last night was the danger zone.