I'm so angry with myself. Why do I let him have such power over me? He's been dead for years but his messages are still stuck in my head. On some level I know these messages are garbage but I can't get beyond them.
I feel so alone-- and it's my own fault. I put up walls and don't let others in. Noone knows the real me. I want to let others in but I'm too afraid. I'm a coward. I can't even bring myself to talk to anyone about it. I can't get the words out-- I just freeze.
How do you get beyond this? It seems so hopeless