It's ok to struggle. No boo hoos needed or true. What your PNP did was inexcusable. And unethical. It is not ethical to have someone who needs further treatment and is leaving your care because of something like your retirement without setting up referrals. I'm pretty positive about this because I had several months of internet counseling when I graduated from college after a severe depressive epidose where I was getting 4 1.5 hour sessions per week to stay out of IP and since I was spending the summer at 2 different colleges (half at each) there was no follow-up available and so he was there for me as I needed. When my psychiatrist died (he was a university employee) they had in theory someone available during the months between his death and the beginning of the replacement. And when my therapist moved to Europe with almost no notice she had to find people for her clients to see. So that's definitely the stanadard and I'm pretty sure an ethical obligation.