[quote=Myrto;4473363]So true. When you feel like you don't control much in your life, you may want to at least control the way you present yourself to others: a perfect, ideal version of yourself. Not that I speak from experience or anything

T and I have discussed this at great length. I find myself comparing myself to other people. I fear that everybody around me knows that I am messed up or depressed when I am. I also feel like I am an awful mother some days. She reminds me many of the people I compare myself to also have problems. Also she talks about how I am a pro at hiding the inner turmoil I deal with.