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Old May 30, 2015, 10:15 PM
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Originally Posted by lunaticfringe View Post
I'm kind of amazed that you posted this because this is something that I think about on a daily basis. I had a Christian person tell me I was possessed a few years ago based on the fact that I have BP and I've never really let it go. I almost always feel a presence with me or feel like there's someone watching me. It's the kind of thing where if I close my eyes...I am terrified to open them because I don't know what I might see. It's also scary having had big hallucinations in the past, I literally never know what I will see. I think forces of evil do exist (along with good ones) and that people with BP are extra sensitive to these things. I often feel like I am being chased by a negative energy...well almost all the time really. But I don't know why. It sucks feeling afraid during the daytime in your own house. Does anyone else experience that in particular?
Someone told you that you're possessed because you have bp? Wow. I guess we're all possessed on this board. Lol!

When I get really depressed, I have these hallucinations where I see what I call shadow people (like they're just black human forms), usually out of the corners of my vision, or on the side of the street while I'm driving, etc. Except for one time when I was at the store and I looked up and one of them was standing right in front of me. They don't really scare me, but that startled me because it was right in front of me, and I had to close my eyes. Luckily when I reopened them it was gone.

I only see them though when I'm depressed.

Amazingly enough during my last episode, when I was all psychotic, I didn't see them.

They're different than the things staring at me when I'm having a paranoia situation though, or the dark things I see in the trees, etc. (All paranoia)

I don't know. I don't know what the point of this really is.

I just really related to your response.
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Thanks for this!
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