I always feel very different when ill. There's this man who does groups in the hospital who seems to think he has me figured out. I really like him but it annoys me that he thinks he has me figured out from just reading my chart (which includes a suicide note so that's something but not really daily me) and spending some time with me. He doesn't seem to get that I'm at my worst in the hospital and am much less intense when I'm not that sick. It's always a weird dynamic.