hello everyone
a few days back i posted a query regarding my strained relationship with my dad who has npd
now the problem is that my conversations are all about criticising my dad (which i believe is justified) regardless of the person i am talking to....
so that is the only thing i talk about.................
that is the only thing i think about...................
i imagine situations in which if he tells me this..... i will answer him back
.....i will tell him to go mind his own business
and that i am leaving (the hospital that he owns and in which i am employed in)

but when i actually face him..................i suddenly start doubting myself.......
it is a very weird situation
i just cant stop thinking about my father or the possible harm he can do to me
this constant mental chatter is killing me
i have tried meditation, xanax, propranolol
but at least the drugs just exacerbate it ...........
please tell me a way out