Am I crazy for cutting myself over losing my boyfriend? well, he was more than just a boyfriend...I dont know anymore, its been 6 months now, and still just as miserable as ever. We really cared for each other and he was the best part of my world. i cant get over it. I miss his smile, i miss his presence, i miss hearing his voice, i miss his love, and i miss life. I dont cut as much as I used to but I still do it. The thing is, I want to ask... Am I a bad person for not wanting to stop cutting? I dont want to stop. It really does take the mental pain away, not to mention brings me back into reality for a few minutes anyways. I feel so unreal, and I havent been living much of a life at all in the last 6 months. All I keep doing is continuously spiraling downhill in this cold, dark and lonely world, with nobody to help.