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Originally Posted by Lady Lindsey
I am sorry you feel DID has ruined your life.... it is what saved mine.
I refuse to accept it is an MI..... and I refuse to accept that I cannot cope or survive.... it just sucks at times....
and yes, my mother use to accuse me of being possessed, and called a preacher from the church to try and cast them out... didn't work out too well....
My life is much better that I live 2000 miles from home and control the situation when I visit. There is a reason I have DID.... like I said, evil is evil.... I refuse to let it ruin my life.... Always Changing, I hope some day you will find peace and comfort..... Life is hard and a DX like DID sucks.....
My question to my therapist is always... when does a "creative coping skill of a child" turn into a MI... I refuse to admit that something that saved me and helped me cope and live is an MI. Do I want to be whole and one yes, am I haunted by my past YES.... but the ones who caused me to be creative enough to acquire the skill to dissociate are Evil...... not me.... Wow! I can't believe I just said that..... hmmmm maybe therapy is working this time...   |
Thank you Lindsey, I better rephrase this as 18 years of abuse ruined my life, DID is the end result. Being fragmented and untreated bipolar though, I was lost and confused for many years to come, to live the life of a roaming addict/alcoholic with a useless 3.6 GPA and a death wish.
This is exactly how I see it. Even today I still experience the multiplicity of reality, but at least we're aware and have something that kinda resembles direction.
Talking about possession, most of the time when an other takes over, it feels like possession. Imagine that.