It is like anything that has the SLIGHTEST amount of pressure on it, like homework, or making myself to read a book or writing an email to my grandma is an IMPOSSIBILITY for me. Aside for physical activities like going for runs, I don’t feel too pressured about that. But anything that has to do with reading, writing and responsibility is an absolute no. Its like I know that I am going to fail and when I think those thoughts an anxious voice tells me “No you are not going to fail” but I proof myself right every time. I fail and fail. I miss the natural pleasant flow of things, when I truly enjoyed what I did and I was motivated and there was no pressure. There was just doing and being and meeting my own expectations. How am I supposed to deal with this pressure that is ruining my life and making it impossible for me to do the simplest things?