I had a whole post written about a conflict I'm having at work, but I became afraid that somehow someone would find out about it, and I would get fired. I couldn't figure out how to delete the post, so I erased it. Sorry about that.

I did come up with a theory, though. I am stable, I think, but most of the feelings I'm experiencing usually occur when I either manic or depressed. I feel angry, indignant, and paranoid. Everyone is out to get me, and I get extremely upset over the smallest things, most of them imagined.

I believe that these feelings have their roots in my bipolar disorder, and, because I have felt them so frequently, they have become my normal reaction to conflict even when I am feeling well. I just can't cope with conflict, so I avoid it when I can. If I can't avoid it, it makes me feel sick.

I know this is not healthy, but I don't know how to manage my feelings.