My step brother starting sexually abusing me when I was 11 and he was 14. I have only told my therapist and that was only to put all my cards on the table. We have not discussed it because I won't. This whole "Dugger" issue is bringing it all back. My step brother is in an evangelical church and is very involved. I guess he feels forgiven. but I still suffer the depression that has haunted me since it first happened. It is not the only cause of my deep depression but definitely something that bothers me. I am currently having ECT which has been very helpful until now. I feel myself slipping and it is another week before I get a treatment. My suicidal thoughts are making themselves heard. I don't know what to do?????