(( Moonkin ))

Fears and nerves flare up when we first start treatment or return to it. It is stressful.

I hope you state your opinions pro and con about your treatment including meds to your pdoc.

Meds may help you feel better so you can take advantage of therapy to get to the underlying issues contributing to your depression. That is where the help is that will last.

Are you wondering if the pdoc has judged you because you were upset about the Rx and tore it up? I think instead she might have been surprised or curious about what you were thinking, feeling, and fearing. Keep at it, stay with it, and you'll find the mental health field has some of the most caring and supportive people who have no desire to judge, just to help.

We all do things we wish we hadn't. Feeling the embarrassment or regret is so normal, even if it is hard. Luckily we can acnowledge it and talk abuot it and go on. As you stay with therapy you'll get used to things like this and your emotional reactions will begin to even out and feel better instead of spiking, roller coastering which is so nerve-wracking.

You're doing good, Moonkin! Stay with it! Learn all you can!

hugs