Welcome to Psych Central (((abki))). Sorry you're struggling. It's a good thing when you get definitive diagnoses, but there is always a time period when you must deal with the emotions of realizing you have them and you go through a time of mourning. This is expected but you must not remain there. You then equip yourself with the knowledge out there to fight and beat and manage these conditions so that you can live a life as close to the norm as possible for you. Medicine has come a long way and many things we can control with just living a healthy lifestyle. Best wishes and again welcome.