thank you for your time and advice, i really appreciate it,
i know my needs and mental health is being compromised by being in this but there is a part of me who feels really sad when i see him sad or depressed, i just cant figure out the way he is whether its just his depression or he is like that as a person?
moreover i just want everything best for him and i just want him to be happy, as i stated previously, a text message from him can make my day, i just feel so valued when he contacts me, i am terribly afraid and angry with myself for giving him this much control but somehow i just cant help it.