No, no sleep. Spent time with Andi's family, trying to hide from the "why" question.. So sad.. Got home and surrounded myself with music she/we loved. Music was a portal for me and her. We would be in the deepest of a swing, hear a song and work our way out. A six year friendship is not taken lightly. I was told by my father once, that if you hold your hand up and count five friends, you could only count on one, that was Andi... I have found true in my fathers wisdom.

Like I posted to purplesecrets, lyrics the words of a song takes me places I would like to stay, to be honest. As I told you before, I played in allot of bands, music is me.. It's sad people don't take the time to listen.
Andi was a heart-friend, the kind you go to anytime for anything she'd be there. She was a stand up gal... Everything I write is in past tense now, just noticed. Do we really slip away that fast? Life, here we all sit and complain and we're a second form death. So many, are far worse of than us. Starting to give me pause now when I do complain, maybe this is a life changing event that will move me from my altered states.

The post and pm's I've received told me to let it out, bear with me please while I work my way thru this madness. I'm crushed to the core, how, why, didn't she care, think, I just don't know............... It's not an option, you don't step out on people and leave them picking there way through the shattered pieces.



Come to my window, stand by the light of the moon, I'll be home soon....