I'm glad that you are out.

That is so nice of you to do that for the others. I was in once with a bunch of people who came the day before me. All of them just were getting ADs started/adjusted rapidly and I was in for akathesia/serious mania. We had meals together and enjoyed being together although I was constantly leaving to go pace so wasn't as close as they were. But when they all left and I was still there (and too far for visitors to come plus I haven't wanted to share that part of my life with my mom) it was hard. It happened again the next time I was in; that one was over Christmas and a bunch of people went home the 27th and left me and one other woman (and the beds filled quickly) until I left the 29th or 30th. That 2nd time i hadn't established the relationships as the time before though. It's really hard to be left behind.

I don't think I could go back as a visitor. You are very strong.

They do the door open thing at my hospital too. They wait until they think people are asleep and then leave doors open. And the beds by the doors do not have curtains to block the light. I wasn't sleeping last time and kept pointedly getting up and closing the door every time they left it open. It made me so mad because it was hard enough to sleep without light in my face and having to get out of bed and close the door over and over. They don't do all the rounds they are supposed to or I would really have been annoyed.