I know that sounds crazy, but it's like the only time I feel. I'm aching to feel down because I feel that I should be down.

I feel so medicated to be stabile that pure emotion eludes me. I feel suspended in limbo. Sure I miss hypo, but I also miss feeling.

I want to cry every now and then but I cant. I can't tell if this is a good thing or not. A person has to have an emotional release every now and then. I miss a good cry. It frees me from the hurt, instead of carrying it and just putting it in my pocket or purse for later.

I'm just so like not too happy I guess. Thanks for listening.