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To me, you sound very stressed. Burnout often results from stress and also can lead to depression. It sounds like you are on the right track, but with so many things eating at you, it really isn't surprising that coping is hard. Some things I think you are doing well are: <ul type="square">[*]identifying your stressors[*]making a list (which helps to contain them and make them more managable)[*]recognizing your feelings[*]talking about it (to us, the supervisors, your T)[*]asking for help[*]doing what is necessary to deal with the situations as well as you can[*]knowing that you are living your life the best that you can (we all have limits)[*]giving yourself credit for being good at the work you do, and knowing that you don't deserve the negative attention you are getting from the state[/list]You are doing lots of good things to cope with your stress. Take it one thing at a time, and give yourself a break as much as you can. Let people help, and even ask people to help. You deserve to have help. Remember that most of the things that are causing your stress are not permanent, and will pass, and you will get through it.

A few more suggestions: <ul type="square">[*]take care of yourself (sleep, diet, etc.)[*]make time to play[*]laugh[*]do things that help you feel successful and competent[*]be flexible[*]daydream - use your imagination[*]focus on the big picture and find meaning in what you are doing[/list]
We're here for you. Vent when you need to, and know that many people are pulling for you and wishing you well.