Sometimes they start safety plans very strict and taper off (I'd guess probably frequently but I've only had one big one once). After I got out of the hospital after a suicide note and complete intention to follow through I was told that I was to throw out all meds that I wasn't taking as soon as I got home and they were to be mixed into wet kitty litter so I couldn't dig them back out that night. My pill bottles went into a padlocked box and my therapist had the key. Every week while supervised I got out a week's worth of meds and then gave the key back to him. When he decided my box was too flimsy I had to buy a more sturdy one. Eventually he didn't pretty much count pills with me and I was allowed 2 weeks of pills at once. It took 2 1/2 years before I was given my key back; I had to go a long time without wanting to hurt myself. There were other things in place but that was the most annoying (I didn't have anyone to control my meds for me). I had to have my mom lock up her enormous bottles of ibuproferon and tylenol when I stayed at her house so I didn't have access. For a few weeks I had to promise on the threat of IP that I wouldn't go into an aisle in a store containing tylenol.
I hated it but understood why i had it and honestly when I got to be done with it I was really proud. I know right now the vultures are circling for whether I'm safe or not and I may loose my freedom again but so far I just have to show that I have crisis #s available and plans to get from one visit to the next.
Hopefully you'll also get to back off some of that over time. it truly is better safe than sorry. A therapist once told me that they are especially careful with suicidal patients because they lost a patient to suicide and don't ever want to go through that again. This made sense.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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