ALOHA Trace, I too am astounded that a T would treat you in that manner. Dealing with trauma requires trust in a T- when trust is broken it's hard to be motivated to seek help elsewhere. I've been in therapy for 30-years for CPTSD and I still am triggered by unexpected stimuli. I am very careful who I trust as a T. and keep them close when I find a good one. I encourage you to keep looking and know that there ARE wonderful professionals who can help, it just takes time to find the right one-