Dear friend

the problem is for every attempt you are trying you are not getting the results. that is causing more frustration. you are struggling to get out of the miserable state of mind and you can't. no matter what suggestions your T says or anyone from here says, its not working for you. ok time to stop trying to struggle. just let go. you don't have to try any steps. give it a break.

some people's mind is more resistant to change. it takes time. you are just overwhelming yourself. first let's atleast stop getting frustrated.