Hi there,

I've been trying to study for exams but I feel like I'm 'somewhere else' all the time.. I stopped to listen to my inner voice which said I'm 'at deep grief'. Thought I'd share this to see if I can then move on..

I've shared a lot about my past here. Five years ago, I dropped out of university in order to start seeing a therapist. With her help, I've dealt with my issues concerning my childhood and growing up with unavailable, even crazy, parents..

I still feel absolutely gutted that my mum doesn't love me.. Not fully. Every time I say this, my therapist says, 'No, she didn't know how to..' My therapist sounds compassionate towards my mum, but I feel angry. I keep thinking my mum could've learned to love me had she wanted to, but she didn't.. I find it so hard to understand, and so hurtful.