I am having trouble right now because I am going through a painful divorce and the "normal" emotions I am having keep pushing me into uncomfortable moods. I wake up daily with my soon to be ex husband on my mind. From the moment I wake up until I go to sleep, he is on my mind. He is leaving me because he said he "realized" we weren't a good match, but the truth is I was diagnosed with Bipolar and he didn't want to deal with it.

I have been so heartbroken over losing my husband and I want to blame the illness. I know that he would still be here if I hadn't become sick. Still, the fact that he is not here for me makes me know that he wasn't really there for me anyway. For my emotional protection, it is probably better that we are getting divorced.

I'm sad about the divorce. But I'm also angry at him. He moved me to another town that we were supposed to live in together (after he got a job transfer) and then he abandoned me here. I live with my mom now but I am essentially homeless and without any financial resources. I didn't want to leave my old home. I did it for him and for us so that we could start a new life and he just left me here. I would have to live in a shelter if I went home. I feel so broken. I miss my home and my friends. I miss the city I lived in.

I feel so alone.

My husband was verbally and emotionally abusive to me and I can't believe I stayed until he left. It makes me a little sick that I want him back after everything he has done to hurt me. I'm trying to heal but it's going slow.

Now I have to stay in this new place and build my life from scratch. I no longer have a car or a job and very little money. I'm in a dark place. I can't talk to my mom about it because she gets so angry at him and then she ends up taking it out on me. I have a therapist and that hour is a blessing but it goes to quickly.

I've been fighting depression like crazy and took up a new self care regimen in order to save myself. It's going to take me at least a year if not two to get back home. I'm super pissed about that. I want my life back. I feel like he stole it from me by talking me into coming here first and then not following through.

My trust has been broken and with a new diagnosis my life seems to have taken a turn for the worst. I'm trying to see what is good in all of this but I see nothing but pain.