Hi Sabau,

Thanks for your post also and it really hit my heart. I am so sorry all this happened to you. You tried to hang in there and keep things together but then things got out of control. I am glad you were able to end it because when the alcoholic becomes physically abusive then he is way out of control with himself. How scary it was for you to suffer like that.

I am glad to hear you are doing much better right now. Do you know if he is still drinking or not now? Sometimes nothing wakes them up and learn.

As far as keeping our communication open, yes I was hoping for that but I had to silence his cell phone ( his only phone) because he owed me money for monthly usage and I never got one penny from him. So for now our communication is nill, but thats ok, I don't want to talk to him for a while now. I just want to heal and think without hearing his voice. I want to cry and heal and when I am emotionally better I can talk to him better at that point.

The worst part for me now is the loneliness and the house seems so empty. It is summer, time for fun and liveliness with your partner and now I don't have one. I imagine what we might be doing right now and it just hurts.

All my kids are grown and on thier own and they have activities already planned this weekend and so does my brother and sis in law. So now I have to figure out what I can do by myself. Any ideas?

Thanks so much for your post. It brought tears to my eyes. But I am so glad you came through it alright.

Terry